you have never ever felt it like you feel it right now

so pathetic, all this wasted time in between soulless posts. what has become of my once over-updated blogspot!?

I planned to blog on the injustice of men having to pee in urinals (no kidding. as a woman, i think it's unfair...), but instead, i shall fill you in on the irrelevant details of my life.

I am:

• working all the time
• lacking sleep
• creating mock-ups of my future full-sized bed based on online swatches of duvet, sheet sets, accent pillows, and the totally hot headboard I wish to buy
• not going to the gym enough
• planning to start going to the gym immediately after work, despite the fact that it’s impossible to get a machine then. it’s also impossible to get a machine until after like 9:30pm – and they close at 10, so I’m going to have to suck it up and wait in line for an elliptical and feel awkward.
• missing out on booze lunches with JDW (long story, but they were never really booze lunches)
• hyper-organizing my desk at work to make up for how messy my room at home is
• letting my room at home fall into a mess to make up for how neat my work space is
• starting to love to iron (my god!)
• drinking diet dr pepper
• what you want is mr. spock.
  
• wishing there weren’t two months between the February 18^th holiday and April 21^st holiday (sad March with no three-day weekends). yeah, what I’m spoiled by holidays, ok!?
• forgetting people don’t fall in love with me
• being reminded people don’t fall in love with me
• Lying
• getting unnecessary amounts of newsprint on my fingers
• realizing it’s time to start getting back to writing more frequently than I have been in the last year
• remembering what it felt like to think some day I might be a published poet or fiction writer
• aching to move back to the west coast – I’d settle for any of these states: California, New Mexico, Arizona, Washington, Nevada, Oregon, and maybe even Idaho or Colorado. So, not COAST west, but west. Western more than here. Which is Boston, which is absolutely east. And has 8-month-long winter seasons and 4-month-long humidity seasons. swell!
• debating getting a mac
• realizing I’m not worthy of a mac
• wasting my breaks at work (that aren’t officially ever taken) doing silly things like writing this entry for the blog
• reading some delightful books
• seeing some delightful movies
• watching x-files with tracy from the beginning – we’re near the end of season 2, so not all that far along. but I’ve never seen them before, so no spoilers like telling me mulder-pants disappears for an eon.
• calling people their names followed by pants. see: mulder-pant. scul-pants. jenjepants. andrlepants. yes, I’m an equal opportunity pants-er.
• eating my vegetables
• Zipcar-ing to exciting places like – new Hampshire! (to visit their sam’s club and target – don’t get too excited).
• misusing : punctuation!
• owning seasons 1-3 of, and watching, scrubs!

And I’m done.

Kisses.