it could be a coma

damn. not even i can understand how the heck i have let over two months go between one blog and the next. what is that!?! alas, now i am here for the blogging again, but have likely lost all readers in this two month dryspell. sigh!

WELL, for those of you who don't know, which is hopefully no one (if i haven't filled you in yet, email and punch me)... i DID get the job in el Bostonland. And have been working for many many (10) weeks thus far. and... yes, it is an office job. no, i do not get to sit on my butt all day long and write poetry and stories (sad, i know) BUT i actually really enjoy my job. it's crazy. So yeah, i work for the Monitor, but not as a journalist (that's not my kind of writing anyway) but in... dun dun dun... circulation marketing. tragic!? no. it's quite fun. the people i work with are great and there are surprisingly many creative things involved in circ marketing. yes, there are some numbers to deal with. but, for example, i got to write the creative copy (read: 3 lines of text for four ads. woot woot) for our new ads that will be appearing soon on the website (csmonitor.com) for subscription orders. I guess i probably can't convince anyone that a marketing job is fun. but i like it. it's amazing that i got this job out of college, i think. i mean, in my worst dreams i imagined myself flipping burgers at ... taco bell. actually, that would just be strange. i don't want to flip burgers, and taco bell should never start making them. but hey, if it's a bad dream, anything's possible.

so yesterday i wrote a short fiction thing. it's been a while since i've been able to write anything i actually don't hate. my poetry is kind of vile these days, and that's upsetting since i was able to produce a whole capstone of poetry that didn't completely suck last spring. ah well. but the thing that makes this an item of interest (!?!) is that, directly after i spent two hours wildy typing it, i saved it a final time, closed it, and then decided to email it to myself. cause you know, i'm paranoid. i had saved it to my desktop so i'd remember to work on it, and i wanted to rename it, so i did, but i opened the properties thing by mistake, in which you can rename the file anyway (when you right click), and i did this, opened mozilla, opened a compose mail in gmail, and went to attach the file... and it wasn't there. how strange i thought, and figured maybe it needed to be refreshed. didn't change anything. i look on the desktop. it's GONE!

now, i know what you are thinking. how could this be?!?!! it was the strangest thing that had ever happened to me. it was as if my two hours of inspired writing had all been a dream. i thought i was in the twilight zone or something... So i do all the crazy things i can think of to recover this document. and finally, about twenty minutes later, i am looking through some crazy document embedded in some settings folder and the contents of it are 1 hidden file. i think to myself, this must be my document! so i go to the control panel, change folder properties to unhide hidden folders, go to that folder... and it's not my file. BUT guess what happy document was sitting on my desktop again!?! Yes. My labor of ... pain. Ok sure. But yeah, somehow, when i had changed the name by changing the properties of the file, i had clicked the "hidden" box. which makes the file "dissappear" and not even come up when you do searches for it. which i did. under both the original name and the renamed name. le sigh!

The funny thing is, when it was missing, i kept thinking it was probably the best thing i've ever written in my life. and now that i have it again, i'm like, huh, this needs some work.

heh.

ok, is that enough craziness for one blog? I feel like i should have made up for lack of blogging in a more brilliant way, but i guess that's all i've got today.

Kisses.
A-cat.